Do You Remember Your 10th Birthday?

"Wait at sundaes and cones on 10 st btwn 3 and 4 av closer to 3 he'll pull up in a black saturn name is anthony" -A text from the kind of person you would expect to text you like that

look at all those butts! 

no one rides on the bridge this time of night.

"On the Way to the Grocery Store"

Today I found a rock.

If you were around, I'd give it to you.

But you're not.

Instead

I'll just think about it

And think about it

And think about it

And think about it

And think about it

And think about it.

Until I forget.

I'm sorry,
If I left Dorito stains all over your bed.

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"Riding My Bike Home" (The form lends credibility)

this is going to sound cheesier than i want it to

if you want to identify the people in your life that you 

actually

care 

about,

notice the people that you say goodbye to before you are heading out of town.  

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The only constant in my life for the past year has been working every saturday and sunday brunch.  

there is a place called christiania

"Dear mom and dad, I'm thinking of you. And wishing we all were in Solla Sollew." -Seussical the Musical (duh)

 self portrait: "crying, looking at myself crying, looking at myself crying (in a room that's not mine)  

a shell of my former self 

"the sound of uncooked shrimp dropped on metal"

When you cry

Lying on your back

The tears roll sideways

Across your face

Down your cheeks

And into your ears.

It's nice,

Because it gives you something

More tangible to worry about

Than whatever reason

You have for crying.

The smallest bones in our bodies

Live in our ears,

So it's important that they not

Get too wet.

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"Nothing Is Too Interesting Today"

I don't remember

The last time

I masturbated

Because I was horny.

Am I weak

That I still cry about you

Sometimes?

I'm sitting on a fire escape--

It's so hot outside.

It's been such a long time

That I've thought about you everyday.

It's hard for anything to be too intersting

When it's so hot outside.

We sat on a fire escape once,

When we were still kids.

It's probably a little cooler

Sitting so high up.

What a gift a cloud can be.

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"When"

I had some stuff

To do

Today

But instead

I sort of did nothing.

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What more could a person ask for, then to end the day with a Facebook Friend Request?

this isn't where i was supposed to be on the fourth of july

"How soon?" - My dad, at the end of our phone conversation, when I told him that I would talk to him soon.

I missed the fireworks

but this morning, I saw these great crushed Skittles on the sidewalk.

"When Your Friends are your Parents"


There is
A certain kind
Of solitude
You feel
When you go to see the new Pedro Almodovar film by yourself.

You feel alone
Because you are alone.
You feel alone
Because everyone is speaking a language you don't understand.
You feel alone
Because it is a comedy
And no one told you it was a comedy
And you are the only one not laughing.

It is enough
To make you pack up
Your "to-go" container from Whole Foods,
Cut your losses,
And head home early.

It is probably important
For everyone to plan their own birthday party
At least once in their life.

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I spent the entire bike ride up and down the Williamsburg Bridge trying to help my dad figure out what is Gmail username is.  Divided we fall!

you'll always be an eigth grader to me.

"Rainbows don't fascinate me." -My friend, about a rainbow.

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I ate this by myself.

"Studio 5"

... by Julian Goldhagen

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My bed has wheels, so I'm always on the move.

everything is fiction or fantasy

"What could you not live without?" -A little kid I passed on the street, to his mother.

in case anyone asks, this is my favorite view of manhattan

"He Had Stayed: a poem mostly by earnest hemmingway"

He had no thoughts

Nor any feelings

Of any kind.

(He can't have gone, 

Christ knows he can't have gone).

I wish I had the boy

But you haven't got the boy

You haven't got the boy

He said softly and aloud.

I'll stay with you until I'm dead,

It's silly not to hope.

But you haven't got the boy

He said softly and aloud.

He looked across the sea

And he knew he was alone now.

(He can't have gone,

Christ knows he can't have gone).

There is no sense in being

Anything but practical.

I wish I had some salt

He said softly and aloud.

Then he felt the gentle touch--

If the boy were here

If the boy were here

He said softly and aloud.

I wish that I could see him,

To touch him 

And to feel him.

I wish that I could show him

What kind of man I am.

The setting of the sun

Is a difficult time

For all fish.

I'm glad that we do not

Have to try to kill the stars.

Perhaps it was a dream

It may as well have been a dream

I wish that it had been a dream

He said softly and aloud.

You must be very strange.

He looked across the sea

And he knew he was alone now.

It was too good to last

He said softly and aloud.

You think too much

He thought.

I wish I had some salt.

I missed you.

I don't know.

Then he felt the gentle touch.

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A fire alarm went off in Whole Foods and no one moved.

In other news, today I bought a hat!

Nelson Mandela is in "critical but stable" condition according to NPR.  We know he's been in critical but stable conditions before!

it always rains on mondays these days

"So what did you talk about in therapy today?" -My mother, over the phone, right after my therapy appointment

I have no idea what this person is doing.

"(don't tell anybody)"

Williamsurg!

The most gentrified neigborhood
On the planet.

I love the way
My bodega
Carries my favorite
Pita chips
Incense
Organic not-Oreo oreos.

I have arrived.

I'm the one in the head scarf.


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I feel very entitled to three meals a day.



And if you don't like the page "Zoo Borns" on Facebook, you're missing out.

Vintage Clothes Shopping, Alone.

"I was reading the sceince section of The New York Times.  If you have ever done a Molly, it sounds like you shouldn't." -My mother.

 These two friends ran into each other on the street!

 Hang on.

That's what it's all about, yall.

"139 South 4th Street"

I woke up today

Feeling ugly.

I hate my nose again

Today.

I have my forhead again

Today.

I know that objectively,

Today,

I look the same as I did yesterday

And the same as I will

Tomorrow

(If all goes according to plan).

Why does this happen?

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"Three Things I Thought During Pride Weekend in New York City"

It is a little shaming walking by yourself to a pride event, dressed up, among people who are not celebrating. 

It is really fun to say "Happy Pride" to cops.

It feels wonderful when I am attracted to a cute man on the street that I find to be a masculine-looking woman upon closer investigation.

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My problems may be small, but my voice is big!

HAPPY PRIDE!