oh, the weather outside is all i can think or talk about

"permanent is not; impermanent is not; a self is not; not a self is not--clean is not--not clean is not--happy is not--suffering is not." - a piece of paper taped to the wall of my friend's bathroom

this water could have come from the tops of the himalayas

"but we have opposable thumbs"

i've noticed an inequity.

i watch an above average amount of nature documentaries.  and one thing that i have learned from that is that "animals" only care about eating and having sex.

today i had what felt like an "unproductive day" in the sense that i technically didn't "accomplish" anything.  and yet, i ate a fair amount--so according to natural law my dad was fifty percent successful. how come "animals" are allowed to live a life where they can blindly follow their two most intense bodily urges? how come when i spend "too much" time thinking about eating or having sex (or actually eating or having sex), i feel bad about myself?  truth.

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i'm so tired of the internet.  but i barely know what that means.