i woke up like this

"pain is not pathological.  it is the absence of adequate attunement and responsiveness to painful emotional reactions that renders them unendurable and thus a source of traumatic states and psychopathology." - robert stolorow

fifty shades of womens-cut jeans from the gap

 always skinny

 curvy

 real straight

 sexy boot

 

perfect boot

"you learn something true everyday"

there are lessons to be learned while transporting one's beta fish from bedstuy to crown heights in its bowl in a cab, if one can only shake the dust from one's eyes:

of the responsivness of liquid to motion;

of the insensitivity of cab drivers;

of the uneveness of nostrand avenue compared to it's more gentrified sisters, bedford or franklin;

of the particular pain that comes with extending oneself, in love, for something that cannot love in return;

of the infallibility of that love.  

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some nights, i lay in my bed and try to feel the depths of how alone i am.  it is an impossible exercise.